ForTheUrbanKidsOnly

This has been the hardest day of my life. knowing that this would be the last day I will get to see my lil bro and sis. Well my last day in the bay went like this… I woke up around 10 and I just laid there staring at the top of the ceiling for about a good hour and half. I had so much going through my mind that I couldn’t even get out of the bed. As I laid there I could feel the tears coming down my face. But I couldn’t realase them. Lay called asked me wear I was and I told her home. She said get up and come out here. I got up finally and stated to finally get everything together so everything would be ready so I could take everything out of the house when it was time. Finally I got dress and headed to cold ass SF for the last time. I was thinking about so much while I was on bart. It still has not hit me hella hard when I board that plane that is when it will come. I hung out with lelani for as long as I could spent our final moment Downtown SF. Then it ened with a hug and a kiss. I love her she my lil big sis and i hope she does good while I am good it pirced my heart to have to walk away from her. But as I left and got on Bart I felt tears coming down my face because I knew that my final moments was coming with my siblings. I went back to my home to get my things and to say my final good byes to my aunt. It felt good leaving my past behind me. My grandpa came to get my things and droped me off at my sisters. I could feel my heart coming out of my chest because I knew that this was going to be my lat time seeing her. My brother was also there waiting for me. Went inside and ate with the kids and talked and hung out with them it was funny ass usual. I am so happy that Marie’s mom has taken my sister in I could not thank her enough. As I got ready to leave I huged everyone and thanked her mom. When I got to my sister and I held her the tears came so hard she couldnt even speak it hurt so much because she how much I love her I did not want to let her go it hurt so bad that there are no words to describe. I will be back before she knows it. Then me and my brother headed back to oakland to I could meet with a dear friend of mine. We went by my others halfs house (Paris) and I said goodbye to her mom and sister. I am glad i went by there to say good by to them because her famliy has always supported me and took care of me so it also hurt for me to leave them. I know they will always be my friend. and Paris will always be my other half. Then he took me out to eat and we had a good time he still couldnt belive that I was leaving too. But as we were heading back thats when all the tears came pooring out I couldent control it anymore. He told me everything will be okay as we gave our final hugs goodbye boy am I going to miss him. But now I am hear at my moms house. On my computer waiting for the hours to pass. As I sit here and listen to my mom talk about this dame man. Since thats all she care about. One day she will see that all this was her fucking fault and also my dad will learn to. But you know i will always be better than them. And from this day on they will always be dead to me. Just know I am going far in life…